Isn't it just sad

Ok, so ever since I have been home everyone that I talk to asks me if I have a phone yet and I always have to tell them no, not yet. But I am working on getting one soon. I find it kind of sad that I haven't really done anything social since being home all because I don't have a cell phone. No one is willing to call my house number and invite me to stuff so here I am sitting at home pretty much every night. Now I didnt write this to make everyone feel sorry for me, I am just merely expressing that fact that if you are not connected to technology somehow then you have no social life. Maybe things will change once I get one but who knows...maybe its just me.

What is wrong with me??

I had a job interview today and I have been a nervous wreck all day! I don't know why I was freaking out so bad. I mean geez it wasn't a big deal. All we did was introduce ourselves, talk a little about the job and the expectations and then answered a few questions. The whole interview was about 20 minutes long and it was over and done like that and yet I was freaking out ALL day! AHHH!!! Now I don't know if I can sleep tonight because I am gonna be worrying about if I will get the job or not. Man I have issues!!

Where is the light at the end of the tunnel?

You know its amazing what life throws at you and all the twist and turns on our path. You think that you have finally taken care of something and then BAM something about it pops up again. It's almost like its dancing in front of you saying "HA HA you thought you got rid of me but you were WRONG!" I know that through our trials we are suppose to learn and to grow and sometimes I feel like I am doing that and then other times I feel like I am being dragged down further. Ever feel like that? Ya it totally sucks. Right now I feel like I have fallen into a very deep and dark hole and I am trying to find a way out but my feet keep slipping and I fall right back down. I want this all to be over with and I want to be happy again. I want so badly to see the light at the end of the tunnel...

CALLED TO SERVE

Well i know this post is quite late but better late than never. I got my mission call last week and i have been called to serve in the Charlotte North Carolina Mission english speakin! I report to the MTC on June 30!! Can i just say that was one of the most exciting/emotional/spiritual/nerve wracking moments of my life. I was so nervous that i was shaking and could hardly open the package! When i read my call I felt so at peace about it and knew right away that that is where i am suppose to be! I am so excited but also getting super nervous as it gets closer and closer. I am also going through the temple tomorrow and i am completely stoked about that! What a life changing experience that will be :)

FruStratEd!!!

AAAHHHHH!!!! do you ever have those times where you are just so frustrated with people and you just wanna slap them?? ya i am definitely having one of those times! Why are people so dumb and why do they have to act so immature? i honestly dont get it....times like this makes me so excited to leave on my mission and get away from everything

Patience is a Virtue

Oh man i totally thought that today was going to be the day that i got my mission call. All day at work people were checking in with me to see is my mail had come and i was getting more and more excited and nervous as the day went on. About an hour before i was suppose to go home i got a text from my mom saying that she got the mail and my call didnt come. I was so bummed even though i kind of already knew that it probably wasnt going to come today. But i still had hoped that it would. But now i am even more anxious for it to come.
Getting my call is pretty much the only thing on my mind. I am constantly thinking about where i will be serving and the moment when i open my call and every other little aspect of preparing to leave. I have even dreamed about opening my call which does not help my already little patience. Last night my mom even dreamed that i got my call and i was going to the washington d.c. temple...who knows what that means but i just thought it was interesting. I love seeing what people have guessed as to where i am going to go. I honestly have no inkling as to where i am going and i still have not figured out if thats a good or a bad thing.
I am kind of in the inbetween stage right now and its driving me absolutely nuts! I can't really go get clothes or luggage or temple clothing cause i have to wait for my call to do anything else. It's so annoying!! But it will all come soon enough and then i am going to be wishing for more time...ya can't always be pleased thats for sure! But it will be here soon enough and...I CANT WAIT!!!

Mission Shopping

Well I just got back from shopping with my mom for mission clothes. It was kind of exciting plus I got some super cute clothes! It was so weird to have to be thinking that far ahead in the future about what I can and cant wear. I had to examine everything to make sure they were garment worthy....I loved it!!! I can't wait!!!!!!!!