Isn't it just sad

Ok, so ever since I have been home everyone that I talk to asks me if I have a phone yet and I always have to tell them no, not yet. But I am working on getting one soon. I find it kind of sad that I haven't really done anything social since being home all because I don't have a cell phone. No one is willing to call my house number and invite me to stuff so here I am sitting at home pretty much every night. Now I didnt write this to make everyone feel sorry for me, I am just merely expressing that fact that if you are not connected to technology somehow then you have no social life. Maybe things will change once I get one but who knows...maybe its just me.

What is wrong with me??

I had a job interview today and I have been a nervous wreck all day! I don't know why I was freaking out so bad. I mean geez it wasn't a big deal. All we did was introduce ourselves, talk a little about the job and the expectations and then answered a few questions. The whole interview was about 20 minutes long and it was over and done like that and yet I was freaking out ALL day! AHHH!!! Now I don't know if I can sleep tonight because I am gonna be worrying about if I will get the job or not. Man I have issues!!

Where is the light at the end of the tunnel?

You know its amazing what life throws at you and all the twist and turns on our path. You think that you have finally taken care of something and then BAM something about it pops up again. It's almost like its dancing in front of you saying "HA HA you thought you got rid of me but you were WRONG!" I know that through our trials we are suppose to learn and to grow and sometimes I feel like I am doing that and then other times I feel like I am being dragged down further. Ever feel like that? Ya it totally sucks. Right now I feel like I have fallen into a very deep and dark hole and I am trying to find a way out but my feet keep slipping and I fall right back down. I want this all to be over with and I want to be happy again. I want so badly to see the light at the end of the tunnel...